The Abyss: Personal story of a therapist and empath’s own private battle with depression

GUEST AUTHOR: STACIE FROST

Stacie Frost is a clinical hypnotherapist and holistic practitioner. Within her work as a psychic medium and self-development coach, Stacie serves many Spiritual Churches and Healing Centres in Greater London, Essex and Hertfordshire. A busy mother, she runs her own colour therapy and past life regression courses and sees clients one-to-one and in small groups from her healing cabin in Essex. Yesterday we blogged about her campaign on her SSHH Facebook page to shine a light on mental health for those in the dark. We invited her to write something for WHOLE_istic Media blog on the subject. She chose to share something deeply personal in the hope it would help others know they’re not alone. This is her story.

I am absolutely passionate about working with spirit and my one wish if you like, is that I would love every one when they leave this mortal coil to know that there is something else, another realm and not just a dark void or “when you’re dead, you’re dead”.  A few years ago, I hit rock bottom and experienced a bout of despair, I say that rather than depression because people suffering from depression can take a long time to feel balanced again.

“My episode (the abyss), was akin to a priest losing their faith. In one evening, I renounced spirit, believed the universe didn’t provide and basically questioned everything I held dear within my heart and soul.”


Stacie Frost, Dip Hyp, MPLTA, Ad Col,
Reiki, Medium and Development Coach

The events leading up to this were a combination of factors, such as Seasonal Affective Disorder, the coming back down to Earth after a fabulous wedding and honeymoon, and the crux was that I felt that in all areas of my life such as friends, work and meaning seemed to be ending one by one. This stripping back meant that I had to push forward alone, and it was hard. My life was seeming to come to a spiritual standstill and it was the last straw in many hurtful and stressful events. To top it all I was suffering from chronic Sciatica and my energy levels plummeted.

The feeling I encountered that night was despair, I felt as if a force had taken my heart and with it any sliver of hope or feeling. I felt flat, in a dark hole, one from which I would never return to the light. My life without my spiritual beliefs left me and I was adrift. In all my life’s ups and downs I have never felt so alone or lost and to be honest it scared the shit out of me!

“The events leading up to this were a combination of factors, such as Seasonal Affective Disorder, the coming back down to Earth after a fabulous wedding and honeymoon … in all areas of my life such as friends, work and meaning seemed to be ending one by one.”

For weeks I existed wondering if my light would ‘come home’, if my purpose and joy would be reconnected. It didn’t overnight, but I asked myself “if I was talking to someone else in this position, what would I say to them?” I would have said “you have to reach rock bottom before you can climb up. This time is meant as a test so roll with it, don’t overthink or fight it, just let it be. Every day, even if it is difficult to try 10 minutes of meditation and do not worry if your mind seems cluttered, don’t question your thoughts, just let them go.”

I told myself these things and started doing them. I also did the thing that is the hardest to do, I asked for HELP. Believe me, it was hard. The more I needed help the less I was able to ask. But ask I did. I joined a group on Facebook who send out positive thought for others and healing. I explained how I felt and received some wonderfully uplifting messages, which so helped me I cannot tell you. I asked my spiritual guides (hoping not to have upset them too much), the angels, family in spirit and the universe for help even though I felt I was just giving lip service. Slowly and surely, bit by bit, my spiritual centre was restored.

“The more I needed help the less I was able to ask…”

I will not say it was easy, but if ever you are in a similar position or have similar feelings, maybe for a different reason, please ask and try to follow these little bits of guidance. If possible, try to share your feelings with someone else, ask, ask, ask, for help from those on the Earth plane and those in spirit (even if you are not convinced). Find the time, even for a few minutes a day to do a little relaxation or meditation as it is so beneficial for mind, body and the soul, it also doesn’t involve cost and nobody else needs to know what you’re doing.

What did I learn from this experience? I feel it was the spirit world helping me sort the wheat from the chaff. I was always searching for my place to fit in and belong. I had to learn my own value and that I am the mistress of my own path, which is the one where I am strong enough to stand alone and work on my own terms. The universe was helping me understand that rather than find my happiness trying to fit in with others, my family is where my priorities and joy lie. Once I realised this, my spiritual and holistic work picked up enormously, and a very tough lesson was learned.

So, going back to my earlier point about if your dead, your dead. Dead is how I felt without my beliefs and although my job is not to convert or change anyone else’s opinion, for me I had a glimpse into what life is without faith, and it wasn’t good. I am also sure that if we do just die, then would I not be concerned with experiencing this loss. How sad it must be, to think that after all of the hard work, trials and tribulations this planet allows us to experience, that non -existence is all we have to look forward to. Now that doesn’t make sense to me!

Stacie Frost, Dip Hyp, MPLTA, Ad Col, Reiki, Medium and Development Coach

For more on Stacie Frost visit her website and her own blog at www.staciefrost.com

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